Twenty-Three

Monday, 8 February 2016


I've never been a very confident person. Always the shy girl who was very quiet, always missing out on things because of that social anxiety. I liked to keep to myself, be on my own and do things that made me feel comfortable. I made sure not to draw attention to myself because I didn't want anybody to look at me. Yeah, I didn't like the way I looked but I also didn't care. I was always back and forth, "I'm not very pretty, I have too many flaws", "I'm not perfect but I'm still happy with how I look." In the end I excepted that part of me, I have flaws, i'm not perfect but I'm happy with how I look now. Well, except for my crooked teeth but I mean, can you blame me? So, yeah, I've become comfortable with how I look but I never became confident in me. Never confident in what I do or how I act. Those are the things I really want to change. I want to be more social and I want to be more confident in things I do, like drawing but because I'm not I avoid social situations and I'm never happy with my art. Art is everything to me but i'll go forever without drawing something because I feel like I can't draw or it won't turn out well and I don't want to face it.




I'm twenty-three now, tomorrow actually and I want to change. I want to grow up. I've always been terrified of getting older. Every year I dread my new age and every year it comes faster. When I was a teenager I didn't want to be an adult. I'd be forever young if I could be, fly off to Neverland and be happy if it were possible. Now I know that it's not possible and that I must move forward in life. I thought that getting older meant getting old. But I look at it now in such a wonderful way. Your age shows how long you've been living on this earth and that's something to be grateful and proud of. I've lived for 23 years so far, seen some changes and will see many more. I will learn new things everyday and because of that I know I will learn to be more confident in myself. I want to try harder and be a better me. I want to embrace new things and try new things. I will draw as much as I can without giving up and I will keep trying if I fail. I think it's time for me to finally grow up. Not to get old but to get wise and brave. Twenty-three is where everything will begin to change for me and it's a change I'm actually happy about.

Happy Monday everybody ! 


- Kelsey xx


67 comments

  1. Gorgeousness darling! Have a great week.
    Much love, Len
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  2. Kelsey! Firstly I love the photos, you look beautiful. The fact that I think you're beautiful makes me think that other people I find beautiful have insecurities of their own. I hope you manage to find confidence and have a nice birthday!

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  3. amazing pictures!! you are really beautiful.

    kisses
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  4. Ahh to be 23 again! Lol enjoy you're last day as a 22 year old and I hope you have the happiest of birthdays tomorrow! :) you are a great artist dear, I still have that picture you drew of Emma as a baby up on my wall! (Maybe it's time for an updated one of your looking for things to draw lol). In a all seriousness though I enjoy seeing your creations, and I know I haven't even seen te half of them! :) have a great day today and and an even better birthday tomo! ๐ŸŽ‚๐ŸŽˆ

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  5. This is such a beautiful post, Kelsey! I'm so glad that you're starting to come into your skin and want to feel more confident in who you are, you have so much to offer, including your incredible gifts, like drawing! I wish you a very Happy Birthday tomorrow, may your day be everything you dream it to be and MORE!

    XO,

    Jalisa
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  6. Such a lovely post Kelsey! Gorgeous pictures as well! Happy early Bday!

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  7. Happy Monday! Very inspiring text. I think that there is a way of growing up that doesn't have to be bad. If we really want to protect our inner child, we need to stop being afraid of growing up.

    As we grown older, it doesn't mean we have to stop doing the things we love or explore new possibilities...On the contrary, often the years bring us the maturity and self-confidence that helps us to try new things! If art is something you like, then you should not let it go...you don't need to show your art right away, you can wait a little bit before you share it. It gets easier with time!

    You look utterly beautiful in these photographs!!! Happy birthday!

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  8. Nice post and cute pics!
    xxx
    S
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  9. Amazing pics as ever doll, love your style!

    Alice Cerea,
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  10. I think that many of us didn't want to grow up, so I totally understand you. It's something terrified and exciting in this. :) Happy birthday to you, Kelsey, I wish to you a lot of love and joy in your life :)

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  11. Very nice. Would love it if you could check out my new hair braiding tutorial!
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  12. Oh happy early birthday! I feel like 23 is going to be a great year for you. Wishing you all the best!

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  13. Happy Birthday darling! 23 is such a beautiful age! Wishing you all the best and may your wishes come true!

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  14. These photos are stunning. Happy Birthday, too!

    Shauna

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  15. These photos are stunning. Happy Birthday, too!

    Shauna

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  16. Beautiful pictures Kelsey! Happy birthday Miss!!
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  17. Lovely photos! Happy Early Birthday Kelsey!

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  18. Happy birthday dear
    Great pictures

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  19. Happy Birthday Kelsey! May all your sweetest wishes come true!

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  20. Happy birthday! I hope you will reach your goals. No, I am sure you will! Good luck with everything :)
    xx
    Larissa
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  21. You're so beautiful! Happy 23rd birthday to you! Have a great week hun! <3

    -Lily from With Love Lily Rose

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  22. Lovely post and your photos are beautiful.
    Happy birthday beauty :)

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  23. Happy birthday! You are in a great place. It's taken me a long time to get comfortable with who I am, and it is still a work in progress.

    Amy Ann
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  24. I love this post!! Happy birthday!

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  25. such a gorgeous face! HBD!

    Have a great week!
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  26. You are sooooo beautiful dear! Wishing you many more successful years ahead!
    Xoxo,
    Love from www.trangscorner.com {a lifestyle, fashion, beauty, and food blog}

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  27. great post

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  28. Happy belated birthday, gal! Stay young & pretty always :D

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  29. Happy birthday! you look so pretty
    xo
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  30. I love your blog!
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    xoxo, Maii

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  31. Great pics!
    Baci,
    Marina
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  32. I can relate to your words although I'm older than you. Being confident is a process and don't worry, you're not alone. All those things are perfectly normal and it gets easier and better eventually. Getting older is the best thing ever because it makes you transform to who you really are. I'm much happier and confident now when I'm 30 and although I still have insecurities and bad days, I wouldn't go back to my early 20-ies or teen years. Enjoy the process and believe in yourself! Happy birthday! :)

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  33. Aw, you look so lovely! I too suffer from being scared to grow older but as time goes by, it isn't so bad after all. Stay strong dear!

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  35. Happy Birthday pretty lady.
    I wish you all the best in life.

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  36. I absolutely enjoyed this post dear!


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  37. Happy b-day love! Have a good day!
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  38. Gorgeous love!
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  39. Happy Bday <3

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  40. You look beautiful! Lovely pictures!
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  41. What a lovely post - wishing you a very, very Happy 23rd Birthday and I truly hope the next year brings about all you'd like it to! :)

    Gabrielle | A Glass Of Ice
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  42. Self-confidence is so important- and something we all deserve! Happy 23rd, lady!

    -Ashley
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  43. So amazing and inspirational post. Oh and happy birthday, dear! x.

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  44. Hope you had great b-day, dear ;)

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  45. Happy birthday love! I was always a shy girl too, trust me 23 will be a great year! I'm almost done with 23 and on to 24!

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  46. You look absolutely incredible sweetheart! I know the feeling so well of not thinking you look great and growing up with social anxiety as I suffered from it for a long time during my teenage years but like yourself I learnt to accept myself and love my self & realise that no one is perfect, but that our imperfections are what makes us beautiful! Happy Birthday sweetie <3 :)

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  47. Muchas felicidades!!!
    Un beso
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  48. Happy birthday sweedy. Dont be scared of growing up. Great shots by the way
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  49. really nice pics!!

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  50. Happy birthday

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  51. Happy birthday dear, you are so beautiful! Have fun and remember no body is perfect, so don't bring yourself down because of it.
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  52. Happy Birthday! Keep up being better than yesterday! Thanks for commenting on Qing's Style. I hope you always keep in touch!
    Check my feed too! @qingsstyle

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  53. Happy Birthday!
    I think you look wonderful and there really is no need for you to hide!

    -Kati

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  54. Happy Birthday! I feel the same about getting older but really shouldn't!
    Have a lovely day :)
    Rosanna x
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  55. Happy Birthday Kelsey! You are truly so beautiful and talented and you should be proud of all that you are! I'm sure many of us can relate to this post in so many ways so thank you, thank you, thank you for writing this! Do what makes you happy, have fun exploring and please do know that you are worth it in every single way possible! I hope you had a magical day filled with so much love, joy and laughter! <3

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  56. So awesome!!!

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  57. nice post! happy birthdayeven if it's too late

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  58. Stunning as always!!! Thanks for the inspiration! Keep styling doll!
    Much love, Len ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’™
    http://www.lenparent.com

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